"You Found Me" - Kelly Clarkson

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me

Well, seeing how the last day I updated was Tuesday, let's see what has happened since... Work work work... closed Wednesday with Tiphanie & Brandon and we were setting people up so that Tiphanie could scare them. She hid underneathe the clothes and I'd go get someone to help me clean it up. We got our manager (Amy) and then we got this girl Christal realll good. She almost had a heart attack, thats how good it was. Anyway.

Thursday... worked 9-5. Was a long boring day. Got my hair cut. Around 8:30, Brandon called and wanted to see Amityville Horror (which I've already seen) so I went with him to Pleasure Island to watch it. Actually more like hauled ass to get there in time, and I beat him... so I paid for the tickets for once. Then the movie got out at like 11:30 so we went to Virgin Megastore, where we looked at CDs and movies and then played Mario Tennis (He beat me. Horribly.) & I tried to cheat to win but it didn't work. Then we walked around Downtown Disney, lookin at the magnet store (lol) and he's like a lil kid in a toy store, he plays with EVERY thing lol. Went and walked through Pleasure Island to get to the other side of Downtown Disney... we were walkin by that crab house resturant, you know the big boat one? And some song was playin and he said "Would you go out with me if I danced like this??" and did some stupid crazy dance and I laughed and walked really fast away from him and said "NO!" lol. So he ran to me and put his arm on my shoulders and was like "Hey... that was mean!" And bent down and we kissed for a minute. Or more... whatever. Got some milkshakes at McDonalds. Walked to my car. Did our thang :) Didnt wanna stop, that was fa sho... but then he asked what time I had to be at work... 7am... and it was almost 1... so he said "Ohh... well I should let you go get some sleep... I'll see you when I'm coming in and youre leaving." And thats exactly when I saw him Friday. I said "Brandon, can I give you a kiss before I leave?" And he looked at me and smiled, so I gave him a Hersey Kiss... lol! He laughed and said "A real kiss woulda been BETTER..." And I told him "That's what you get at work."

And then.. Friday... well after work. I was planning on napping but that didnt happen. Went out with my chicas Aly & Lucy cuz it was Lucy's last night in Orlando :( Had a late dinner at Ale House. Went to PI. Left there, went to downtown Orlando, and then ended up at Denny's at 2am.

Finally got HOME by like 4am. Slept til 10...ew... Naty called Sat morning, and she was in my neighborhood so I went to the pool with her til about 1:30 and then home to change and work. I was on my lunch break when Brandon was leaving and as he leaves he winked and did a kiss at me, and his lead was sitting next to me, and made this really weird face at Brandon and I started laughing and said "Uh yea, Andrew, that wasn't meant for you." And work sucked last night cuz it was mad busy (Memorial Day weekend) and messy and I had soooo much effin clothes to put away and just ugh. I'm mad happy I'm off til Wednesday! So holla at a playa I'm out!

Omg... last Thursday's The OC season finale was soooo good!! No wonder I'm addicted to that show, I love the drama! Lol anyway... Guess who never called me back Thursday night... hmm mmm... bastard. But whatever cuz Friday was fun! Got my 2 best friends Aly & Julie tipsy! And they played Flip Cup! (Team Conrad is #1) And yesterday I worked and it sucked cuz I cant remember the last time I did an 8 hour shift...lol.

Today I went shopping at Target. Got the Ryan Cabrera CD (aka my boyfriend...lol) and the new Mariah Carey cd (aka best female singer in the world), some super cute Cookie Monster pajama pants that are so effin comfy, a new purse (like i dont have enough lol) and a new tigger to add to my collection!

Tonight I go see Star Wars wit my bestest friends from St Andrews... Julie & Rachel! Tomorrow I go to Sea World with Julie and those are the only definite plans I have!

Lata chicas <3

Good God. Last night was fun that is for sure. At first anyway. What else is for sure is that I was D-R-U-N-K, drunk! Hottdamnnn. We only had beer to begin with and it was me, my brother (Paul), Raul and Wandi, until Steve came back from bartending skool. So once he got here, we actually ran out of beer, so Steve and Paul went to some Asian guy's room, cuz he was 21, and they went to go do a beer run. Once they came back, we had Jenn & Colleen, Steve, Chun (the Asian guy), Paul, me, Raul, Wandi, then Tim, Mahoney and some other guy came over. Tim had that bottle of Jagermeister & they asked me if I had ever tried it, I said no, so I took a sip. It tastes like black licorice. And then, as we're all getting wasted we decide to wear Steve's hats of ties. So I took his beanie (cuz really, who needs a BEANIE in Daytona Beach anyway?) And I dont know how I managed to even text message Brandon throughout the night, cuz I could barely even walk. The games of flip cup we played really got me messed up. Chugging beer after already having 5 and then 3 shots of Jager just did not mix. And Mahoney kept on hitting on me. I prolly would;ve had the chance to hook up with him but all I could think about was Brandon and I know I couldnt do it, regardless of he's my "byofriend" or not. And the guy whose name I couldn't remember took my cell phone from me right after I sent a message to Brandon (which said "I never said I didn't want you.") He messaged me back and said "Well u act like it, I mean u pushed my hand away the other night from under your shirt...y?" And that guy READ it and gave the phone to my brother and his other friends and so my brother sent him a text message back being all protective. I was so fuckin embarrassed. The night was fun until then. I told Brandon I'd call him today when I'm sober but I'm afraid to call him. I dont know. I kinda wish I didn't remember the night but then again it's good to know I wasn't so far gone that I can still remember it. Then we went to Steak n Shake at 3:30am to get food (me, paul, mahoney and tim) and its amazing how quickly you get served at 3:30 lol. And my spanish is REALLY REALLY good when I'm drunk, I spoke soo much spanish to Raul, Paul and Wandi, I'm surprised. I should've taken the AP exam drunk! lol j/k!! Went to bed around 4:30, Steve's futon is so fuckin uncomfortable. Woke up at 11, and left at 11:30 to come back home. Anyway my head and especially my eyes hurt... so I'm out. I need more sleep. Lata chicas. <3>

Ok tblog didnt post my last one. Bitches. Anyway. TOMORROW. LAST DAY. FREEDOM. Yesssss. I might cry. I might now. Either, I'm gonna avoid wearing mascara!

Tomorrow night... gonna get crunked up in Daytona!

<3 love yas!

CLASS OF 2005!! We out!

Damn this shit's gonna be long... go grab a drink or some pop corn or some lol.

Ok so he came over and picked me up. Met my dad, but it was casual... I was actually finishing up some financial aid CRAP for USF when Brandon was driving over, so I was telling my dad about the papers or whatever. Brandon told me lata he was almost expecting 21 questions, ending with "And what time will my daughter be home?!?" Yeaaaa I was worried about that too but my dad was cool. So we went to Chili's down on I-Drive, and I walk in and see MARIO this one Jamaician guy who used to work at Nike, and he says Hi and then Brandon walks in an he face dropped and he smiled at us and then continued with his corn on the cob. And kept making faces at Brandon and stuff. Yea... got me some chicken tacos... he got a burger of some sort. Oh its a good thing Mario doesnt work at nike anymore. He wouldve told EVERYONE (and their mother) that I was with Brandon and as if Roxy didnt leave enough juicy gossip I do not think we need any more of it. lol.

Then we went to CityWalk were I saw Tiffany Waters and her crazy self runs up to me and jumps and hugs me LOL and looks at Brandon and goes "Oh!! Who are you? I'm Tiffany!" And hes like "Hi... I'm Brandon" and she was all like "Oh how nice... I'll see YOU in skool Monday Joyce!!!" Then Brandon turns around and she winks at me... lol.

For the first time EVER I got ID'd for a goddamn movie. He asked for my skool ID first, and I guess cuz Brandons was a VCC one and mine was for WOHS he felt obligated to ask for my ID... yea nice... I'm 18 bitch!

Oh my god... House of Wax was really good (Chad Michael Murray... shirtless at one point... drooooool... it was almost too much hottness for me! lol.) And Paris Hilton... oh damn the allusions (english literary term!!) to her sex tape were just too much! lmao. So yea... lots of leg touching in there... at one point I was super comfortable and didnt wanna move but the biatch in my row that went to the bathroom came back. Bitch. lol. And then I put my head on his shoulder and he leaned over and kissed my head. Awww. I fuckin melted. And then we left and he had his arm around me and I see like mad West Orange people there... some people from my English class and stuff :P Now you know why I don't date WO boys! Too young!!

And you know the best part of the night. When he dropped me off. Yes playa. Got home actually around 12:40. At 1:00 I finally made INTO the house!! Lotsa kissing. And stuff. He asked me "Is there gonna be room for me in Tampa?" I said "Ohh yea we'll make room for you." And we made a lot of jokes about Roxy cuz um he didnt remember it. After one kiss he said "Yeaaaaaa I remember THAT from Roxy..." Uh huh I bet he did. Sorry. Gotta admit. I did not want him to leave... once we started, truth is I aint feel like stopping. Yesss tonight was good. So fuckin glad I worked Thursday and got Friday off. He told me to "think of this while I'm working tomorrow night," when he kissed me. Dunno how i'll go so long with out it when I move, cuz once a week just aint cuttin it!

Ok thats enough for me. It's like 1:30 in the am, I need to go to bizzed!

<3 lata chicas!>[LINE]

I loooove the new Faith Evan's song "Again!!"

Ok just got home from work. On a Thursday?! Yes. Worked today to get Friday off... yeaaa I'm off tomorrow! And already got plans... with who else but Brandon. He looked at me today and said "Is it Friday??" I said no, I switched with Troy so I'm off Friday. He said immediately "Don't make plans, go out with me." Yeaaaaaa. But I told him he's gotta pay cuz I only have $14 in my bank account and thats gotta last til NEXT freakin Friday! Ugh ew. So yea. Cuz like I told him, he said at Roxy he owes me biiiig time and we could count that. Not that he even remembers that night lol.

3 ***THREE*** days LEFT OF WO!!!

<3 lata chicas

*4* count em, FOUR days left of West Orange, playas!

Took my AP exam and it sucked. But I'm done with AP Spanish FO'EVER! If I get somethin lower than a 3 (which is most likely my score anyway) I'll be takin portugeuse in college instead of spanish. A lil variety. A new language. Something different instead of the same foreign language that I've been learning since 6th freakin grade. Anyway. My madre (or padre) needs to call me bizzack... Nike called, said if I work Tomorrow, then I can get Friday off! Yeaaaa! So I need to ask my mommy and daddy BUT NO ONE ANSWERS THEIR DAMN CELL PHONES... jeez. Lol.

Lata chicas... see ya at skool where we only have 4 days left!!!!!!!! :D

everyday people ask me "are you two going out?"
you don't realize how painful and hard it is to reply:
"no, we're just friends..."

Yeaaaa still coughing up a goddamn lung. This sucks. But 6 days left of hell West Orange!!

Yes that's today's update :P

Oh yea working at 5am-2p is really so much fun!! Except for the fact that I had to go to a gas station at 4:30am (thats scary, cuz I was by myself & it was mad dark) & it was raining (did any of you know that or were you too busy sleeping? lol.) and colddd. But uh yea... Brandon also worked that 5-2 with me, so it was fun... when I got there he was still sitting in the chair so he called me over, and he wasnt sure if the lights were on and if someone was there in the store. Well they were biatch! He was just lookin for an excuse to get me in his car. No, just playing there was no 5am action... not til I go to Tampa. But I digress! He called me last night at 10:30 and I was passed the eff out! He said it was cuz if he had to be awake a 10:30 and work at 5am, then I should too. And he was surprised I didnt answer my phone. Please, I turn that sound & vibrate alret OFF! And it was fun it was such a bullshit shift though, we get like a million breaks cuz Gina didnt care, we got some Mickey D's breakfast and stuff. Was fun! If I ask Brandon if he'll visit me in Tampa he'll smile and say "I don't plan on just visitin, I plan on staying the night too. So you better save room in your bed for me!" And left work, Brandon couldnt keep up wit the old Protegizzle (that would be the name for my car) on I-Drive! (which just means I'm a shitty driver actually but so is he) and took a 2½ hour nap! So now Im awake and ready for some promised baked ziti!! <3 Love

What they gon do? Shit! El no va a hacer nada!

Anyway. Do you know how much it sucks to see your car everyday and not be able to drive it? See it all dirty and not taken care of? But why should you clean it when you only drive it like once a week, if youre lucky?? I'm so fucking pissed!! I know I may sound spoiled but I want my own fucking car!!! I hate sharing what was told to be MYYYY senior year car!! Especially when my ungrateful brother is using it EVERY fucking DAY and I have to bum rides from people to get home from skool (and sometimes work) I hate not having my own car when I got used to having it. I wanna buy my own car but my mom wont let me... and all I want for graduation is a CAR. Of my own. Fuck the laptop, I got my own computer that I dont use. This one if the family comp that of course my brother took over and keeps changing my Derek Jeter desktop picture to freakin Natalie Imbruglia. He's been taking over EVERYTHING ever since he moved in and I'm fuckin sick of it!!

Edit. Here's more... I just listened to my brother argue with my parents for the last hour. I dont fuckin understand this crap! I swear, I may be the baby of the family but I'm not the spoiled one! I'm not the one who's gonna go apartment shopping with my mom. I'm not the one they talkabout buying a new(er) car for. But I'm the one who is fucking willing to work while in college and pay for it. I dont understand. I dont fuck up as a kid, I've learned from other people's mistakes. My #1 quote in life is "Learn from the mistakes of others, you can't make them all yourself." Said by the super sexy super hott Usher. And he couldn't be more right. And yet... "Joyce go to college, dont work and dont think your gonna have a car there." But why does Paul get to have a car while in college, but I cant? Why does my car have to be his? Why would you tell me that its my car for senior year and then when he comes crying home bitching about the $39,000 a year college that he lost 2 scholarships for,  you immeditely welcome him home & give him my car?! Why can't i buy my own car? "Joyce you cant afford the car insurance." Youre paying for it right now, what difference does it make? Payin for a car I'll actually be driving (and paying!) or payin insurance on a car I barely even drive but ALWAYS take of, cleaning it out, washing it, waxing it, making it somewhat decent for PAUL to drive, not even for ME to drive. I'm so fucking sick of doing shit for him, covering for him too! I cant wait to move out. I cant wait to go to Tampa. I'm gonna miss the hell out of Orlando but I'm so freakin independent already I'll get used to being on my own.

Ok I love (well not really...) T.I. especially when he does a song with NELLY!! "Get Loose," which gives me my new blog title, which goes right along with the getting loose that went on during prom, grad nite and the getting loose that WILL happen around/after graduation!

Right right right... I came to a conclusion in Photo class today. With the help of a sophomore nonetheless, I asked him... if you go out with someone, like 5 times and it always ends up with a make out at the end, what exactly kinda status is that? He told me it would depend on the guy, so he asked me about the guy and I told him how like we flirt all the time and he gets mad jealous when I (innocently!!) flirt with other guys or talk to other guys, and he was like "Oh, well you guys may not be official but you're definitely dating. But don't ask him whats up cuz you might scare him, so wait til the next time you go out and see what he says." See those sophomores are good for something!! So I think... I'm single... but only during the week, haha. J/K... So really when I get hit on at work (which happens frequently, those Brazilian guys seem to love me!) I feel kinda bad cuz every once in awhile I do get caught by Brandon, lol!! But I'm thinking I should stop otherwise homeboy's gonna get the wrong idea...

Anyway... been busy with skool, doing my many photo projects that are due (one Monday, one Weds., and then the final exam on Friday which he moved to the following Mon for me cuz I have my AP exam next week!) Ugh soo much work to do and soo freakin little time I hate it!! Hooper's class was insanely hilarious today and if Ms Winchester is our sub tomorrow I'm gonna kill myself. I haaaaaaate that lady shes such a bitch who's always on a power trip!!

I'm not freakin over my AP exam anymore cuz I know I'm gonna do bad anyway so eff it. I'm just there to get the A on my final exam! Yeaaaaa playas I only have TWO final exams this year: Gov't & English!

My effing iPod that I got for my bday doesnt effing work so I need my padre to take it back and exchange it (for a blue mini!)

Let's see this weekend: No skool FRiDAY! Ernesto comes into town, and I haven't seen him since 8th grade when he moved to the DR... but then I gotta be at work at 4... and I need to find a ride into work, LOL.
NO WORK SATRUDAY!!! Whoa!! Well I have to go to the store meeting, 8am-10am but then after that I'm freeeee!! Freeeee to have fun til 9:30pm when I need to go to bed, cuz SUNDAY I'll be BACK in Men's Apparel, working at effing 5am :(

Ok. I just took out the twists from prom-- they were KILLING me!! And my head was so itchy and gross and it feels soo good to get them out!!

Went to work last night (with MY car!! for once!! unfreakingbelievable) and it was fun cuz I'm back in men's apparel!! Officially next Sunday, where I work 5am-2pm (ewwww) and they actually GAVE me next Saturday off!! What?!!? Lol. Definitely not complaining about that!! Anyway... went on my lunch break with Brandon... he did NOT remember anything about Roxy, so I had to tell him what all happened to US and he couldnt believe he tried to feel me up. He apologized. Oh then I did my gov't homework. By the way that Coach Gabriel is an asshole!! He was our sub yesterday and... ugh. OH and Pimp, did the boys win yesterday? Cuz Hooper said if they win, we ALL get 100s on our Vocab test on Monday... anyway I digress.

Then after work, I had to rush home, change and rush to CityWalk to catch a 12:20 Amityville Horror (again? Hells yea, two words: Ryan Reynolds. And Brandon wanted to see it.) But we didn't make it in time so we ended up watching The Interpreter which was pretty good, I love Nicole Kidman she's representin for my Austrailian people :P And we were good in the movie theatre, no making out! Thats so middle skool anyway. But I was cold cuz I wore a skirt and a cute pink polo (no sweater, what was I thinking?) But I was kept warm ;P Although I gotta admit Citywalk theatre sucks cuz you cant move the arms up. Anyway.... the movie got out at like 2:40 and by the time we walked to our cars, talked and made out (thank yoooou I was really needing that LOL) it was 3 when I left. And then got home at 3:20... and called him to let him know I was home safe (cuz he told me to) and he was already asleep! But I got my action =)

So yea, now I gotta hop in the shower and wash my hair for real!! Ahhh that is gonna feel sooooooooooooooo good.... and then I'm going shopping cuz I have NOTHING to wear to Grad Nite in my big ass full closet!! Lata chicas, see ya at Grad Nite!!! <3

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yea guys we were SO hott at prom but i didnt have a picture of Pimp!! :(

I HAVE NOTHING TO POST except that I hate West Orange and can't wait to get out. 15 days playas and counting!!!

Oh and I got my yearbook and it needs some serious signing done to it! And prom pictures on Thursdayyyy and yes chicas I'll be posting them (prolly not here, but I'll link em)

And I'm feeling (ew ew!) sick!!! Coughing, sore throat, ew. Aly thinks I have mono but I'm thinkin NO. Sounds like a lil cold er whatever. We all know who to blame fer that one... :?

I like these spanish lyrics: Es tan triste tener que decirte que me olvides... otro amor ha llegado a mi vida y no te quiero. But I dont really relate to em, they just sound good lol. Translation? Of course! "Its sad to have to tell you that you forgot me... another love has arrived in my life & I don't want you." Like I said... not really relating to it but sounds good!

My brotha bought DDR today. And the DDR pads for his Xbox... and lets just say I SUCK AT IT lol.